Ok, confession time.
I have basically skated through June on my Project,
and couldn't quite get back on track for more than
just a day or two at a time. That's bad news because
it puts me a month behind schedule.
The GOOD news, though, is that I haven't gained
anything I just checked and I am now exactly where I
was at the end of May (actually June 2). It's like
June never happened.
Blogger is bouncing a lot of my posts from Yahoo so I
don't really know what's going through and what's
not.......
Anyway, Good News! I got a card from Nephew Andy the
other day. It was a pic of he and Tara with a note
that said "Save the Date", Maui, July 6, 2007. So
they're getting married!
So....it looks like I'm going to Maui next July. He's
supposed to get back to everyone when he finds a
condo/resort that can accommodate everyone so we can
get our reservations made. I imagine Bro Steve will
want to go with me. I don't know about Bro Ken - his
first reaction was "I have absolutely no interest in
going to Hawaii!" Now he says he'll think about it.
Me? I have a lot of interest in going to Hawaii.
In fact, Maime and I had talked about taking a
Hawaiian cruise next summer when cruise prices are so
cheap. Now that this has come up, I need to check
with Andy and make sure it's OK if she comes - I can't
imagine why it wouldn't be. So we'll still get our
vacation in Hawaii next summer.
However, I've been thinking about this. Wouldn't it
be cool if we could combine the wedding with the
cruise? The only reason not to is the expense - which
increases due to having to stay at a hotel/resort for
a few days before hand. But, really, that's not any
different than staying a few days in any other city
before a cruise is it? I guess it'll depend on how
expensive it is. The Maui cruises usually depart on
Saturdays, the wedding is on Friday. We've already
paid the air fare and we're there. So, why not?
I'm going to suggest this to Maime and BroSteve when
we get the hotel costs sorted out.
The handicapped stall at work (the only stall actually
built for adult-sized people) has the unfortunate
habit of splashing either the seat or your butt when
it's flushed. Just what you need on your butt is
water spattered pee or poop that you can't easily
wash off. Because the sink, with the clean water, is at the
other end of the room. What are you going to wash
splashes off with? Toilet water? That's the
problem in the first place. You can't get to the damned
sink without pulling up your undies and that's just
gross.
You just can't win. iccckkk.
At Maime's insistence, I have packed up and will give
away all my clothes in the size I wore when I started
the Project. She said they are now too big and sloppy
and she insisted I not wear them. Ever again.
So, the 6x tops are gone. The 3x pants are gone.
I am only wearing 5x and 4x tops and 2x pants. I had
hoped to dump the 5x's by the end of June but that's
not going to happen, so now I'm shooting for mid-July.
The 4's are still a bit snug for my taste, which runs
to "the clothing cannot touch me anywhere" which means
they probably fit normally for most people, but I just
can't do it. My clothes have to have a certain amount
of bagginess before I determine they fit me.
The problem I see coming up is that I have absolutely
nothing in size 3x. I have looked through the closets
and I see that I have a gap between 4x and 2x. So,
when I get comfortable in the 4's, and dump the 5's,
I'll have to wear them for awhile, through what would
be the 3's, and down to the 2's. Because I AM NOT
buying 3's.
So, I haven't been on here for awhile - mostly because
nothing's happening. The month of June has been a
wasteland for me weight-wise. I don't think I blogged
here that I weighed in mid-June (a week ago) and had
gained 1.5 pounds. Mostly due to birthday parties -
or maybe I did? Hell, who cares. So, my absolute,
never to be broken goal for the following two weeks
was to get back on the proverbial stick and lose that
10.5 pounds total June goal. I don't think I'm going
to make it because I've been fu$$$ng off again. BUT,
the intention is still there.
I re-found a great website yesterday that has their
swimsuits on sale for fantasic prices. I bought a
couple of rayon dresses from them in the spring and
their latest email said they're having a sale. It's
"swimsuits for all" (swimsuitsforall.com) and they are
having a FANTASTIC sale! I just bought a $65 suit in
size 20 for $9.98. And another one in an 18 for
$19.98. You can't beat those prices for swimsuits in
those sizes. They also had a skirt I had my eye on
from before, but it was $42 which is too much for a
cotton skirt - but now it's on sale for $5.98.
$5.98!!! I bought it in both black and white. And it
has silver sequins - fabulous! Me luvs me some
sequins. They also had it in khaki and brown but I
thought four of them might be just a bit much. But it's only
$5.98. If you need a swimsuit- womens, kids, mens -
definitely head over there and check it out.
Ok, here's a pet peeve - why do swimsuits cost SO
MUCH? They're one of the most expensive items (for a
decent one I'm sayin', not a cheap drugstore suit) and
they're one of the smallest items?!?? I get excited
when I see them on sale......
Ok, time to get really serious. Here it is the 19th
of June, 2 weeks left in the month, and I have gained
1.5 pounds.
June is the hardest time for me to concentrate on
weight loss - it's the beginning of barbecue season
and the weather is turning nice, it's filled with
birthdays and birthday parties and cake and ice cream,
and Father's day and more barbecues, and I have tried
to not completely indulge but when someone sticks a
perfectly barbecured tri-tip steak and mashed potatoes
in my face, what am I to do? Add that to
fresh-picked strawberries and ice cream and you can
see my dilemma. So, in the scheme of things, I think
that a gain of 1.5 is damned good.
So, the birthdays are now over. Father's Day is over.
I have two weeks before the next "event" - the Fourth
of July. I can lose something in 2 weeks.
I'd like to lose 11 pounds. That would keep me on my
goal of being out of the 3's by end of June.
We'll see - I'll keep you posted.
I'm actually quite happy (and surprised) that it was
only 1.5! It could easily have been much more.
I just figured out that I've eaten the equivalent of 9
pieces of cake in the last three days.
Next time, if I can't give it away THAT DAY, I'm
THROWING IT IN THE GARBAGE!!!!!
I obviously cannot have cake in my house.
I've lost momentum.
I have to get myself back on track on the Project but
it's not easy - I start out every morning with good
intentions but, ever since Saturday, it's hard to
maintain that resolve. Weekends are hard anyway.
Then on Sunday I had a bunch of folks over for
birthday parties and we had a great potluck. And cake
and ice cream. And, unfortunately for me, there was
half a cake left and I could only give away about half
of that, so I'm inundated with cake. Or I was before
I ate a bunch of it. I still have some, though, so
I'm tossing it tonight when I get home if Ken hasn't
eaten it. I finished the chocolate ice cream last
night, which was most of a half-gallon of light
Breyers, so that's now out of the picture. The
Pringles are now gone (last night). I lost my mind
last night, obviously, on leftovers.
Ok, I'm not weighing in for a few days - I've made a
promise to myself that I'm weighing on Friday. That
gives me time to get back on track, and maybe lose
anything I've gained back through the last few days'
binging (bingeing? binging? having binged? the act of
eating like a pig?) At least I don't purge, although
it might have been a relief last night after all that
cake and ice cream.
So far, at 37 pounds down, no one has noticed except
Scott, but he always notices if I've lost weight.
Maime has noticed but she may be just encouraging me.
Yesterday I had a bagel from Starbucks for (kind of)
brunch. Then I bought a salad at the restaurant in
the building and took it home for dinner. After I ate
that I was still hungry, so I did what any dieter
would do - I raided the cupboards.
I found brownie mix - but if it's not cooked it
doesn't have as many calories, right? So I poured
about half of it into a bowl, stirred in some water,
and ate it.
I might have the second half tonight.....
What's weird is that vacation is still 6-plus months
away and whenever I'm at rest I'm thinking about it.
What am I going to wear? Do I need more long pants?
Too many shorts and capris? Skirts? What if it's
windy - do I really want to be wearing skirts in the
wind? What should we do for our shore excursions?
Just get off and explore the port and shop and eat?
Pay for one of the cruise's excursions? Is there a
quiet place on the ship to sit out and read? Or will
I end up on the balcony? But the balcony might be
kind of small if we all sit out there...can you stay
in your room or do they want you out of it so they can
clean it? Where will we eat? There are something
like 9 restaurants on the ship - will I get lost?
When can I buy cigs to bring back? Can I buy them in
the duty free shop before I disembark or in the ports
and bring them back on board? I hope they have cheap
jewelry and gifts to bring back for Christmas presents
- what should I buy so-and-so for Christmas? Steve
will be along - I usually get him, Dad and Ken hats
whenever I go anywhere - he'll probably buy his own
hats if he wants them, so what do I get Steve for
Christmas? Do Dad and Ken really want a bunch more
hats? What should I read? The new "insert here" book
is coming out this summer, should I save it for the
trip or read it when it comes out? What should I take
to read? on and on and on and on and on...................
Not much going on here - TV is a proverbial wasteland
right now with Survivor, The Amazing Race, America's
Next Top Model, Lost and American Idol having just
wound up their seasons. I might watch Project Runway
when it starts up again, which I think is pretty soon.
I've read that it's pretty good. And I know I'll get
hooked into Big Brother All Stars when it starts up in
a couple of weeks.
Everything else seems to be cops, doctors, forensics,
etc. and I just can't get much interested in those. I
like CSI but this season I've barely watched it.
I end up watching a lot of A&E and Poirot, Sherlock
Holmes and Midsummer Murders. Those are all pretty
good and I like the characters.
I watch a lot of television because I'm home alone a
lot so I don't apologize for it - it's good company.
Spongebob has kept me company for many, many hours...
hmmmmm, this didn't go through last week - trying
again.....
Not that it's SO important but it is to me.
Ok, here's the weekly update
Another 4 pounds!
This was actually about a 10 day period so it was
not as good as I could have hoped, but it's in the right
direction so I'm certainly not complaining.
Another 9 pounds and I'll hit my next goal of leaving the 3's.
I can't wait.
So, total since April 4: 37 pounds
