God, this place has gone insane! There is such a pervasive air of fear and uncertainty in the air around this office that I'm surprised we're not all in the asylum. The whole swirl of rumors regarding the smoking area outside, and who's responsible, and why, and who said what, is effin' crazy!
Then, no one wants to say anything to anybody about anything about the office - they come to me and say "this isn't right - someone should say something" and when I say "do it" they say "not me!" Expecting me to take care of it, I guess. So nobody says anything about anything, but they're all afraid. And in City Hall, everything is so political, and there appear to be so many hidden agendas, and no one's taking responsibility to do what they say and follow through, and the back door deals and apple polishing is enough to drive a sane person over the edge - what a bunch of conservative, small time politicos - doesn't honesty, integrity and ethics mean anything anymore???????????????????????????????? And all that politic-ing and managing-by-fear filters down from City Hall to management to employees, who are hammered with the brunt of it and, believe me, each paycheck is well-earned. Sometimes in blood.
On the other hand, I'm also willing to believe that it is not all caused by City Hall - our managers, from the top down, may have created most of this craziness themselves. In fact, the worst one ever just retired in July, but his legacy of 25 years is so entrenched that it'll take a generation to filter it out - particularly his dislike of minorities (never outright, you understand but funny how they all lost their jobs or quit...hmmmm). (Oh, and the last one he was working on booting out died first.) This man's legacy is one of hidden prejudice and bigotry, unethical budgeting, hidden agendas, outright lying and dishonesty. Women and minorities hated him, men loved him. Guess which side won?
And employees have cause to be alarmed. Because the last person in this office who tried to say something about the inequities around here, in a forum where we were all asked outright to feel free to ask questions and make comments, and did so, was soundly slapped after the meeting and basically told to shut up or be fired. What the hell? And many of those who slapped her down were her fellow employees! There are people who still hold a grudge against her for speaking up and saying what many of us were thinking. Fuck, fuck, fuck.
No - make that fear, fear, fear.
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